Lyrics To Live By!

Hello All! (Or no one at all, as the case may be lol) 

There's a Punk Band called "SNOT" and I have been listening to them for a long time now. And I recently found one of their songs on my Pandora stations!  It's more like a monologue set to music, but his lyrics have touched my ravenous heart in so many ways. Now I know it's not the blase form of music the majority listens to (Or that Snot normally plays!), and believe me he won't scream your ear off! It's all about Addiction and having to overcome our Inner Demons and make Positive Choices in our lives. He rambles on at times, but his message is honest, true and from the heart and it damn near makes me weep every time I hear it!Some of you may or may not know that I am a recovering Alcoholic with almost 8 years of Sobriety, and sometimes it seems like the uphill battle through snow your grandfather told you about years ago when describing that dangerous walk to school. ;) Most days I am fine with it, but when I feel it's evil clutches come scratching at my door, I jut think about these lyrics and it helps me push through that 10 minute crisis. I don't expect to one day wake up and be able to drink again, I know that will never happen without immediate Jails, Institutions or DEATH. I have a healthy fear of Alcohol though I don't let it control me. What would be the point of getting sober if I still worried about it all the time! I try to love myself, clean house, Be the best I can be towards others and every day I hope I am becoming a better Daughter, Sister, Husband, Aunt, Friend and Worker than I was before. Messages like this give me hope!!!*Please see the Lyrics attached below, as well as a link to the YouTube Video, which is was more awesome in MY book. 

Thank You and Have a Zen Day!

Zen Betty

PS ~ Pass a Smile Along Wherever You Go,It's The Best Accessory You Can Wear!

SNOT - "Sad Air" Video Link

LYRICS - SNOT "Sad Air"

I'm addicted period.You know. I mean like, and its weird because so many of the population,so much of the population is addicted or -or you know compulsive and impulsive. I'm really like, compulsive about shit.When I can't fix my head with, you know,with a certiain drug or whatever,I'll clean somehitng up, you know? Or I'll, i get really like,fucking fidgety and uncomfortable and I get,I fly off the handle easy, you know? It's like if it's not,if I'm not gorging myself on, on, on one thing,I'm fucking...I'm trying to fill that,that hole some other way, you know what i mean? It's always this great feeling of needand it doesn't ne-necessarily have to be of anything in particular, its just something that you don't know what it is, which drives you that much more insane sometimes,You know? And that's what a lot of people today,um, suffer, from and a lot of people don't even realise it, you know? I don't profess to know everything about it but, you know? I don't know. i just uh, I know that theres that hole that needs to be filled.And uh, a lot of people die trying.

Time Flies When You're Having Fun!

Where does the Time go? It seems like just yesterday I updated this Blog... So much has happened in the past year! Let me begin where I left off:
We moved out of the Beach House safely, though a little upside down. Sold our old Camper/Toy Hauler and bought a smaller Camper, and we made that our Home for a few months while we saved up money. After we saved a little money (and sold our last motorcycles to help round out the Bank) we packed a trailer and moved. To COLORADO!
We now reside just outside Colorado Springs, CO on the edge of a 1,000 Acre Reserve known as the Red Rock Canyon area. The Hubs and I have been here since July 2012, and it's AWESOME so far! Right away we took to the Hiking and scenic views that are in abundance in this area. The Snow this winter has been a bit of excitement for us Florida kids too, although I am sure that will wear off the first time we have to dig the truck out of a snowbank... I for one am looking forward to it being deep enough for Snowmen, snowball fights, snowboarding and sledding! Odie seems to have really taken a shine to the Snow already. 
Although we left the Mastiff Max at home in FL for now, we're hoping he can join little Odie the Labradorable with us shortly. We are still awaiting the arrival of the rest of our furniture and possessions too, so that's kind of a pain in the tuckus, but for the most part things are going smoothly! I've been tending Bar to bring in some cash, and my Hubs is still creating things out of Metals to pay our Bills. We had a great summer, and managed to save a little money too. Things are starting to slow down at the Restaurant etc, so I will probably have to pick up Sewing again to make a little extra money this winter. So far I've been doing little Home projects to make our little 950 Sq Ft Apartment a little more cozy, like painting cheap metal frames bright Turquoise and Pink, Sewing curtains and a new Comforter set for the bedroom. 
Although the last Year has been full of Ups and Downs, I feel like we're on the Upward slope once again. We've been busy making new Friends, seeing new things, eating new foods and just trying to be open to living Life in general! I feel like little pieces of my Soul come together when I see the sunlight streaming through the Mountains. Watching the Sunrises and Sunsets out here really make you appreciate the grand Country we live in. 
I can't wait to experience all it has to offer... 
Never stop Traveling!
XOXO
Zen Betty

Up...

As in, things are totally Up in the Air right now!

First off, Let me fill in a little space here with Technology issues, which I had several of over the past 4 months.
- Sewing Machine broke
- Phone died, switched to iPhone (<3 it!!!)
- Mac Attack needed new parts, had the Logitech Board replaced
- Sent Mac back a 2nd time, to fix the case issues I am having after their Repair
- Sent Mac back a THIRD time, to replace the Logitech Board AGAIN, and to fix the case issues their repair caused
- Sewing Machine broke again the day before the Surfing Day Event, leaving me with unfinished projects and waiting clients!

Now it's June, I am back online and ready to conquer!
Let's see... We had the International Surfing Day Event, put on by the local SurfRider Foundation in Martin County, FL. That was super fun: Great weather, live music, food & snow cones, and lots of cute goodies for sale! They even took a Fabulous photo of me (Zen Betty) at my booth, chilling in the shade.

To view pics from the event at TreasureCoastHappens.com click on this link:
http://treasurecoasthappens.smugmug.com/Events/7th-Annual-International/17627183_G6CNkR#1343342913_tDQmbwm
We all had a little fun, made a little money and helped a great cause! *Nichole From Treasure Coast Reuse Center was there, and we shared a tent, along with Reenie (Sp?) who makes the cutest purses out of recycled Capri Sun packages as well as Coffee bags.

Now it's the end of June, and my garage is packed full of junk to sell at the Moving Sale, and to Freecycle what doesn't sell. The Anxiety I am feeling over not being able to walk in my Garage is killing me! I can't wait for this Sale and the actual Move to just be over...
I'm crossing my fingers for a speedy finish to this long, drawn out, Hot Mess! After the Beach House is gone, I imagine I'll take a little break again. But until then I will do my best to keep up with the It's All Zen Blog, as long as my Technology holds out!
Catch ya on the Flip Side,
XOXO
ZenBetty

*PS - I took a wonderful Jeweler's Saw Level I class in Sebastian this month, and it was FANTASTIC! I will fill you in on my classes with DragonWerx as they progress.

Technology Upgrade!

Finally got the Mac Attack running again, after replacing the LogiTech Board & wiping my HD then installing a new OS (SL). Sweet of Apple to foot the bill for the LogiTech Board ($1,000!), so I'm only out the $30 for the OS UpGrade! Also we swapped providers & picked up the iPhone 3GS for FREE! I've barely managed to tear myself away from it since it arrived... Have to get some work done, all I need now is to get my Sewing Machine fixed and we're good to go!
I know it's a long time between posts, but no worries, I'll be up and running asap. Till then, Stay Fabulous!
ZB

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Surround Yourself With Beautiful Things That You Love!

As one of my motto's, I do love this saying! But when it comes to surrounding myself with beautiful people that I love, I think I could take my own advice a little more often. *Make no mistake, I mean Beautiful in the sense of their personality, not looks! Anyhow, I recently noticed that on my personal FB page I had hit over 200 "Friends". How can this be? I asked myself.. I am constantly on FB, and I talk with tons of my peeps that I absolutely love love love to be in contact with, and hear from! The rest, well, not so much. From fear of "hurting" someone's feelings, or whatever the case may be, I don't delete people even after I realize we have nothing in common or that their personality just doesn't mesh with my own. I was keeping some people on my Friend List even after I "hid" their posts b/c I just couldn't deal with the Drama or their Poor Me attitude. Yes, I am a Positive Patty! I just don't dig people who don't take responsibility for their own actions, have a shitty moral code, party like they're still on college when they're pushing 40, and have no follow through! If you're such a Debbie Downer that you're constantly bitching about your life and how crappy it is, and why/how it is always someone's fault other than your own, why would I want to be around that?!? Have some Personal Accountability!
I can't change people. I'm not interested in trying, to be honest. That's their problem! How I let it effect me, that's my problem! To keep toxic people around, when I have no reason to, just to avoid dealing with it, is just silly. I have no problem confronting a problem head on, so why couldn't I confront my issues with my "friends", even if only by not allowing them to sully my otherwise sunshine-y outlook on Life, Love and the Pursuit of Happiness? Now, I don't need to personally contact every person I have issues with and run down a list of why I am not interested in them as a "friend". But do I need to keep them around? NO.
I finally hit Delete today, and man did it feel good! I got rid of peeps that I don't converse with, people who I felt only added me to up their Numbers, and people who have Toxic personalities. I may have "hurt" someone's FB feelings, but seriously, it's FB. If we have never spoken, other than our original Add as Friend, why am I keeping you around and vice versa? You're just chumming up my News Feed, Bro!
I Love my Life. I Love my Husband. I Love my Family, True Friends and my Pets. I Love my Surroundings and the challenges the Universe throws at me. Am I perfect? Hell no! Do I need to be? Not at all! Is my Life 100% Fabulous all the time? Not even close lol. I'm not even Perky all the time. But mostly I am. Deal with it, or move on, it's your choice and I certainly won't cry over you hitting the Delete button if that's what you feel is best for you!
Live your Life to the fullest and surround yourself with Beautiful things that you Love. And that definitely includes the people in my life, whether on FB or in real time.
A moment of Zen,
Brought to you by Moi,
Zen Betty